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Earth

February 17, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Earth with Americas and moon

 

World of Wonder,
Orbiting sphere among spheres,
‘Neath the constellations of the stars,
Constituting a great Riddle.
 
Four-fold elements:
Fire as marker of sacrifice,
Air as marker of bestowing blessing,
Water as marker of spiritual renunciation,
Earth, new, as marker of death.
 
Minerals belong to their cosmic organism,
Plants belong to the organism of Earth,
Animals belong to their group souls,
And man only belongs to himself, an “I.”
 
Substance has been alienated from its origin,
Sacrifices rejected and held back,
Creating longing, questioning,
The need to understand
And relate to all that is.
 
Cain’s sacrifice is rejected.
Generations upon generations
Of humankind seek
To be reunited with meaning
And with other beings.
 
Only on Earth
The reality of death:
Substance torn from meaning.
 
Only on Earth
Christ becomes man
And triumphs over death:
Wonder of Wonders,
The Mystery of Golgotha,
Meaning of Earth,
The Turning Point of Time.
 
John stands as witness,
Paul at Damascus sees the living Christ.
Humankind begins to experience
The Etheric Christ on the astral plane.
 
Only on Earth
The understanding of Christ,
The path through resurrection.
Mankind regains its proper course:
Riddles will be resolved,
Resurrection will allow ascent,
And redemption will be realized.

 

Based on a lecture of Rudolf Steiner dated 12/5/1911, in GA 132, Inner Experiences of Evolution.

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Ancient Moon

February 17, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Watery planet

 

First, a remembrance of Ancient Sun,
A glowing planetary sphere with a ring
Composed of clouds of the substance of sacrifice,
Archangels raying light from the periphery of Space inwards.
Time and eternity part their ways
As certain Cherubim wrest themselves out of time and achieve permanence.
 
Transformation through metamorphosis.
Sacrifice manifests as heat.
Bestowing manifests as air.
Renunciation manifests as water.
The gaseous atmosphere condenses
Into a watery, rippling mass.
Changing weather flashes
With the enchanted lightning of the Seraphim.
 
Some sacrifices are not accepted
And the renounced will substance
Needs be is withheld in individual beings.
Egoity and opposition arise.
Selfhood, emptiness, torment.
Mighty meanderings of longing swirl about seeking satisfaction,
Seeking relationship.
 
In answer, the Spirits of Motion bring forth
A continuous, every-changing stream of pictures,
Offering new relationships and new remembrances.
Masterfully wielding the forces of attraction and repulsion,
Gravity and levity,
Joy and suffering,
Spheres of Beings are brought into harmony,
Resounding in constant interplay,
Received in dreamy picture consciousness.
 
Luciferic beings gain field of play,
Beings of freedom and independence,
Opposing cosmic will with self-will,
Granted as cosmic opponents
To create strength through opposition.
Maya, semblance, occults reality.
 
Human beings, without any “I”
Absorb surging deeds of good and evil,
Ensouling experience
As wealth of unconscious,
To carry forward as longing,
As search for meaning.
Seeking redemption
And reunion with eternity
Through Christ,
When Earth shall one day
Fulfill its purpose.

 

Based on a lecture of Rudolf Steiner dated 11/21/1911, in GA 132, Inner Experiences of Evolution.

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Ancient Sun

February 17, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Old Sun globe with ring

 

Centered in a point,
Spirits of Wisdom, the great givers of the cosmos, surrender in devotion
To the vision of the Thrones, kneeling and offering their sacrifice to the Cherubim.
Their devotion glows and grows and billows as sacrificial smoke,
Streaming creatively in all directions, bestowing grace.
Clouds of wisdom condense at the periphery, amid the wafting air.
Archangels arise out of the clouds
And accept the sacrifice of the Kyriotetes,
Mirroring, raying it back in the form of light,
Illuminating the interior of the new-found globe.
 
The Spirits of Wisdom receive their inner being reflected now from without.
A sphere with inner and outer, point and periphery,
Glowing with inner radiance.
Time transformed into Space.
And with this give and take, cosmic memory.
 
Behold the birth of the Archangels, Beings of Beginning!
Created through the bestowing gifts of the Spirits of Wisdom,
Condensed and reflected back as light.
From out of Time, Space is born.
 
The Solar Soul, experiencing all
Will in later times call
To his radiant companions
And even the betraying one:
“This is my body, given for you;
Do this in memory of me!”

 

Based on lectures of Rudolf Steiner dated 11/7 & 14/1911, in GA 132, Inner Experiences of Evolution.

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Ancient Saturn

February 17, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

dying star_

 

Without time, without space, without sound or sight or form.
Far beyond the abyss:
Warmth circulating, warmer and cooler,
A surging sea of courage.
Spirits of Will, beings of pure courage
Kneel, with utter devotion and strength of sacrifice
And offer up their flaming being to the winged Cherubim.
Shimmering radiantly, these enchanting beings of infinite wisdom
Stream wisdom through the sea of courage-warmth;
A relationship arises, and out of relationship, a birth:
The Cherubim gather up the smoke from the fire of the Throne’s sacrifice;
Pressed out and extruded as a cosmic Word,
Time is born, as beings: the Archai.
 
Behold the birth of the Spirits of Personality,
Forged through the joyous flaming sacrifice of the Thrones,
Offered up and accepted by the wise winged Cherubim.
From out of eternity, Time is born.

 

 

Based on a lecture of Rudolf Steiner dated 10/31/1911, in GA 132, Inner Experiences of Evolution.

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Cosmic Evolution Imaginations

February 17, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

I was very taken by the recently republished lectures in Inner Experiences of Evolution (GA 132), which provide an opportunity to consider cosmic evolution from the perspective of soul experience. In the first several chapters, Steiner builds up an Imagination for Old Saturn and Old Sun. I have sought to gather up the indications specifically from these lectures and form them into poems. What I have been able to come up with follows in the next four posts: Ancient Saturn, Ancient Sun, Ancient Moon, and Earth.

earth from sun

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Longing for Christ’s Gaze

February 14, 2015 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Christ Countenance in color

Christ came to me one morning
Shining brilliantly in the sunrise,
Walking on water towards shore.
I ran to Him
To offer my support
To bring Him safely to land.

I realized He did not need my help
Though innocent and full-hearted I sought to give it.

I stood before Him,
Naked in my imperfections,
Soiled with sin,
And harboring greedy thoughts.
Eyes cast down, I dared not look up
At Christ’s radiant face
Knowing myself quite unworthy of His gaze.

How I long now
To meet Christ again
And look deeply into His eyes
Teeming with grace and suffering and love,
Accepting of my blind spots and misdeeds
Trusting that I will redeem my blackened bits
And make ripe the fruits of my life’s course.

Longingly, I wish to enter those depths
Where I can stand bare
In all who I am
And who I am not,
And receive compassion
From Dear Christ’s eyes.

I thirst!  I thirst!
Let me be flooded
In the baptism of Your tears,
Awoken, refreshed, with new strength pouring through my veins
To offer service to Thy Will,
Forgetting nary a one of my brothers on earth.
May I be cleansed by Your gaze,
Purified, radiant with Hope, Courage, and Love!

May my eyes meet Thine,
And may blessing arise!

Filed Under: Poetry, Uncategorized

Remembering Sergei

October 27, 2014 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Remembering Sergei

Sergei Prokoffief

 

In the beginning was the word,
And the word was made flesh
And dwelt among men.
Awaken!  Hearts harken!
Beat now with Michael!
Know who dwells among you
And lights the path!

Here stands a Slavic Man,
Encircled  ‘neath  Sophianic cupola
Temple speech to profer
The wooden lecturn, livingly formed
A pillar for strident arms to hold
Musician’s fingers, slender, expressive
Chiseled features, unassuming countenance
Hallowed bones effortlessly upright
Contained, awaiting
Tender heart beating under sweater vest
Earnest, translucent sapphire eyes.

Doors sealed, spirit awaiting
Sweeping gaze ‘til stillness arrives.
Spoken word, sculpted, focused
Adam’s apple intent-imbued
Sun-drenched vowels
Carefully carved consonants
Propelling delicately fashioned forms
Moral sustenance
Eagerly ingested, chakras spinning.

Hear you who speaks through him?
Courageous, unafraid
Leaving each listener free
Evil transfixed, transposed, transmuted
Christ imbued, inspired, spoken
Slavic Man, Standing firm on Foundation Stone
Lending utterance to wisdom of the spheres.

So he was.
Now gloriously reborn, in Spirit freed
Violet, rose, blue, green, light suffused
Enveloped by the
Symphonic forms of the ethereal first Goetheanum
Breathing flavors of refined thinking
Engendering glow
Forsaking for the moment the lecturn’s spot.
The hallowed Representative of Man in principal place
Gladly surging onward
In Christ’s radiant light and love.

 

Amelia Golden

In memory of Sergei Prokofieff

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Mystery Drama Resources

June 22, 2014 By Amelia Leave a Comment

FourSeals_horizontal

There are some excellent resources available online for those who are engaged in a study of the mystery dramas.

Luigi Morelli’s article The Impulse of Spirit Recollection deals both with the mystery dramas, and with several aspects of the social impulse.

David Wood has written two very cogent articles which explore the historical personalities that provided models for the characters of Strader  and Theodora  in the mystery plays. His articles can be found on the website of the Science Group of the Anthroposophical Society in Great Britain.

It is likely that H. Collison’s Commentary on Rudolf Steiner’s Four Mystery Plays will be reprinted soon.

Additional resources readily available in English include Eileen Hutchins’ Introduction to the Mystery Plays of Rudolf Steiner, and H. Pusch’s Working Together on Rudolf Steiner’s Mystery Dramas.  From Rudolf Steiner, additional insights regarding the dramas can be found in Three Lectures on the Mystery Dramas, Road to Self Knowledge and the Threshold of the Spiritual World, and Secrets of the Threshold.

Filed Under: Anthroposophy, Self-Development, Uncategorized Tagged With: Mystery Dramas

Spiritual Science and Social Sundering

June 13, 2014 By Amelia Leave a Comment

Community by Iris Sullivan

Community by Iris Sullivan

Rudolf Steiner’s first mystery drama, Portal of Initiation, begins with a scene between two friends, one of whom, Sophia, studies spiritual science and the other, Estella, who doesn’t. Estella wants to convince Sophia to go see a play, Outcasts from Body and Soul. However, Sophia has been working on a mystery drama which appears at the same time. Estella is worried that Sophia is drawing away from her and losing touch with everyday life and common sense. Estella, a modern realist, thinks it is important to accept harsh reality as it is, and forsake abstract ideals. Estella says, “I was rejoicing with all my heart at the thought of having you beside me to look into the real depths of our present-day life. But your world of ideas —which is so alien to me – will destroy even the last remnant of our friendship, that has bound us together since our schooldays” (14). Sophia reminds her that differing opinions don’t need to change the feelings between friends. Yet Estella feels that everything Sophia does just estranges her from all that is worthwhile. Estella admits that “something in me rebels against the way you look at life” (15). Sophia counters with, “Honestly, if you would only admit to yourself that you’re really asking me to deny the very core of my nature” (15). Estella feels that Sophia’s views imply superiority and greater profundity. She is suspicious of those who study spiritual science and feels they are spiritually arrogant.  After further argument, Stella ends with, “I understand what you are trying to say, but it only shows too clearly that you prefer to indulge in fantasy rather than face the truths of life” (19).  Nonetheless, they part with the expectation of remaining friends.

With this prologue, Rudolf Steiner presents a theme which is essential not just to the plays, but to our encounters with others in everyday life. It is indeed a common occurrence that an individual who delves into spiritual science soon finds himself estranged from others whom he used to feel close to. The feelings between two people change when one can’t understand, and subconsciously rebels against the world view of the other. Those with strongly held materialistic views will feel repelled by much that spiritual science has to say. A common outcome is that people drift apart and become estranged.

Are we wakeful when this happens with us? How common it is! I have witnessed numerous marriages broken when one partner took up Waldorf teacher training and the other did not take up anthroposophy. I have witnessed families torn apart in Waldorf communities after immersion in Waldorf-related ways of life. How is it that what seems to be a good thing, spiritual science, can wreak such social destruction? Are we acting with spiritual arrogance and unrealistic ideals? Have we lost touch with what is happening in the world? Perhaps some of the criticisms hurled at us have a basis in our behavior. Have we continued to nurture our relationships with non-anthroposophists? Are we humble? Do we expect to impose our views on others through talk and neglect right action? Have we narrowed our circle of friends so much that we have lost touch with modern culture? Do we cultivate real interest in others outside our circle? Do we really know why we do this or that, or are we just following a new cult-ural example? These are very real questions!

Steiner states in his Karmic Relationships lectures that anthroposophy can indeed be a force that disrupts social relationships. Individuals are drawn to anthroposophy through experiences in the spiritual world prior to birth. New connections form to other Michaelic souls, alongside one’s existing karmic ties. This can create dilemmas in life. One finds one family, friends, and old karmic circle on the one hand, and the strong pull to fellow Michaelic souls on the other hand, even while this latter group includes people from varied, and sometimes opposing streams from our own. How does one respond to this state of affairs? It is a situation which confronts every anthroposophist. Steiner cautions us:

The one will have this or that to undergo through the fact that he must tear himself loose from old connections and unite with those who are seeking to cultivate the message of Michael. … But in every case, those human beings who are within the Anthroposophical Movement stand face to face with others who are not in it, including some with whom they are deeply, karmically connected from former earthly lives. Here we can look into the strangest of karmic threads. (Karmic Relationships)

Steiner continues (with emphasis added):

It is most necessary for the anthroposophist to know that in this situation as an anthroposophist his karma will be harder to experience than it is for other men. From the very outset those who come into the Anthroposophical Society are predestined to a harder, more difficult experience of karma than other men. And if we try to pass this harder experience by — if we want to experience our karma in a comfortable way — it will surely take vengeance on us in one direction or another. We must be anthroposophists in our experience of karma too. To be true anthroposophists we must be able to observe our own experience of karma with constant wide-awake attention. If we do not, then our comfortable, easy-going experiencing of our karma — or rather our desire to experience it so — will find expression and take vengeance in physical illnesses, physical accidents and the like. (Karmic Relationships)

Weighty words, indeed. If we do not manage to fulfill our karmic tasks in the right way, we may be subject to physical illness and accidents! We hinder ourselves when we neglect our karma from the past. So how does one deal with this difficult state of affairs? Those with whom one was once quite familiar, perhaps throughout our childhood and youth, now are estranged from us. Yet we have karma with these individuals which we must put into order. And on the other hand, we feel the impulse to tear ourselves loose from these old karmic ties and focus on our Michaelic companions. How do we find right action in these situations?

Rudolf Steiner gives us a hint, when he has Sophia and Estella part with an affirmation to remain friends. The feelings of connection with those with whom we have karmic ties must be respected and honored. It serves neither our own karmic burden nor our friend’s future if we discontinue a deep relationship. If one can discern the nature of the karmic bonds, one can resolve the old karma and bring it into order. This may entail remaining true to our responsibilities and obligations with regard to the other person. Or perhaps, cultivating forgiveness and loosening our personal interest in some past dilemma will serve. Yet there is also the other to consider. They may be repulsed by spiritual science, yet they are our friend. If we maintain a warm relationship with them, we give the other access to the light and life-giving effects of spiritual science beyond the gate of death, if not already in this life. Why would we want to foreclose this opportunity for the other to come into spheres where he or she will have access to Michael and Christ?

The situation is made even more weighty by the fact that these karmic ties affect not just us, but our angels as well. Anthroposophists, through their study of spiritual science, allow their own angel to penetrate even deeper into the spiritual world that it could before. Those who are stark materialists and with whom we may sever ties, cause their own angel to fall even deeper into lower worlds.

The destiny of anthroposophists, — the destiny that works itself out between anthroposophists and non-anthroposophists, — casts its waves even into the worlds of the Angeloi. It leads to a parting of the Spirits, even in the world of the Angeloi. The Angel who accompanies the anthroposophist to his next incarnations learns to find his way still more deeply into the spiritual kingdoms than he could do before, while the Angel who belongs to the other man — to the one who cannot enter, — descends. It is in the destiny of the Angeloi that we first perceive how this great separation is taking place. To this, my dear friends, I would now direct your hearts. It is happening now, that the comparatively single and uniform kingdom of the Angeloi is being turned into a twofold kingdom of Angeloi, a kingdom of Angeloi with an upward tendency into the higher worlds, and with a downward tendency into lower worlds. (Rudolf Steiner, Karmic Relationships)

The Angelic hierarchies are in the midst of a sundering! We have a role in how this plays out. Do we strive for spiritual enlightenment and activity for ourselves alone, or do we strive to bring our fellow human beings along with us in a loving way? How successful are we really at obliterating our egoism? By paving a way for our friends to reach spiritual realms through their relationship to us, we also help the angels find their way deeper into cosmic happenings. Life will present myriad variations of this tendency to split off from other souls who have not yet found their way to Michael. Much rests on how we respond in each case.

A further example of sundering is given in the mystery dramas. Johannes, we discover, has neglected his relationship with a young woman who was faithfully devoted to him. Instead, he pursues his relationships with Maria and with spiritual science. The young woman, bereft, has killed herself in grief (123). The old girlfriend arises in Johannes’s vision, seeking an end to her suffering (139). Johannes Thomasius realizes his error, and comes to understand that he now has a heavy karmic burden to settle with her. He neglected to heed his karmic obligations. Furthermore, in his enthusiasm, he managed to transform Maria’s selfless love for him into a passionate desire for her, which hinders his spiritual development and prolongs his journey on the spiritual path. This is a very complex karmic knot, one that is not fully resolved even by the end of the fourth drama. How might his path have been different if he had taken his first girlfriend along with him into Benedictus’ circle? How might her fate have been changed?

Women often outnumber men in the anthroposophical movement. Our local group of anthroposophists are almost all women, most with husbands at home who are not engaged in anthroposophy. Yet we are all happy to have our supportive husbands and our anthroposophy too! By maintaining our relationships with those we have close karmic connections to, despite a lack of openness on the other’s part to spiritual science, we keep open a pathway for them to reach deeper into the spiritual world after death and in the future. We are, in a way, gatekeepers who can choose to keep the gate open.

Anthroposophy is given not just for those who are destined to find it, but for humanity as a whole. Let us be awake to how the relationships we maintain in our life (or don’t) may impact more than just ourselves. As anthroposophists, we are called on to put our karma into order, and to pave the way for Michael’s mission to come to fruition on earth. Let us tend our social life with care, that the sun may shine evenly on each and every one.

Christ Countenance in color

Filed Under: Karma, Self-Development, Uncategorized Tagged With: angels, friends, karma, obligations, relationships, separation

Etheric Vision and the Eye

June 4, 2014 By Amelia Leave a Comment

budda eye

Shared from Adriana Koulias on Facebook:

Etheric vision does have a connection to the eye. This I have been studying for a long time and have now found a great lecture I haven’t seen before which helps to support my experiences. It is truly a wonderful lecture! I thought I would share it with you! And my joy! He speaks here both of the etheric counterpart of the things we take into us and our own etheric body.

In fact, if you study the organisation of the eye in any human being you will have the material for a sound judgment of the person’s etheric body; the etheric body which is so like what I have just termed a framework. You cannot better train yourself to divine something of the nature of an individual etheric body, than by attentive study of the organisation of the organ of vision. Having once grasped this, you will find that the rest will be easy. Acquire the habit of observing whether individuals focus their gaze at a distance or near by, and let this impression work on you; and you will cultivate a sensibility to the perception of the etheric body. Call meditation to your aid, and it will no longer be so difficult to ascend from a devoted attention to the effects of the eye-organisation to the contemplation of the etheric body itself.

Rudolf Steiner

Read the full lecture here.

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